I seem to have many underlying issues and I have no idea what to do nor anyone to give me advise on what to do. I feel that I am too skinny. Dont get me wrong, I like to be thin, but I seem to constantly lose more weight. (I weight about 115lbs and I am about 5'9" - no im not deathly looking, but I know I am not healty. My boyfriend is always concerned with how skinny I am. Also Id like to add that my mom is the EXACT same way with not eating and cooking for the family but always having a plate that looked like it should feed a baby...but I never used to be like her until about a year and a half ago.) I feel like I am anorexic but at the same time, Im not WANTING to be any skinnier...im simply stuck in this rut and I cant get out for the life of me. I can agree that it is my fault. I NEVER have an appitite. Rarely I will actually want to eat. I know that there is causes such as stress and jealousy...and other day to day issues. But my problem is that I feel like I am trying to work on myself emotionally every day but I still go nowhere with my eating habits. I want to gain weight. I want to look healthy...but even when I force food into my body, I feel so sick. I feel like I need to vomit half way through and I end up giving the rest of my food to my dog...somewhat because my boyfriend gets really mad at me when I dont eat enough and at other times, simply because I cannot force anymore food down. Its odd because he is a fitness freak. You'd think having a person around you like that, would make you want to eat - which I do, but .. I cant. Ive tried to see countless doctors, went on countless medications, and really nothing worked. They have taken so many tests. I just dont have a solution.
Am I the only one? Is there anyone out there with my issue??
Hi sugar, While I do not propose to know the answer to you issue with eating....perhaps if you have not already contacted a nutritionist, you should. If you are medically sound then the issue lies elswhere as I am sure you are aware. I would try protine drinks as a booster. What you eat is important as you know. Stress and the constant fear of someone calculating and monitoring what you are eating will get the better of you. Try to think positive!!! I would also like you to contact an eating disorder clinic and have a full screening. Maybe you are anorexic but like most do not "believe that you are!" Keep us posted and Blessings! Valerie
Hi....I thought I was the only one who went through this. I just started eating again a year ago. I was down to 89 pounds and I'm 5'2. I have come to realize my reason for this was stress. Everything that I tried to eat made me sick. The more people made remards about how skinny I was, the harder it was to eat. I was so consumed with what everyone else was saying, I never listened to myself. I did the same thing, I tried to work on my self, my feelings, my health. The harder I tried the worse I got. I'm not sure why, but I just stopped trying. Then I noticed that I was eating more. Now I'm up to 105. People still say I'm skinny, but now I just laugh. I think to myself, what if they would have seen me before :) I say just dont try so hard, dont put so much thought into food and making yourself eat. It will come natural when you relax. You say your boyfriend is really into health. Well good for him. Pressure is not going to help you, you will eat when you are ready. I know it seems like that time will never come, I felt the same way. But it will. Good luck to you :)
